I think I've developed a fear of needles...

Update: I’m all done with the procedure and it will take a few days for them to get back to me. They did end up putting a piece of metal in me, in the case that I do need the nodule removed. It was pretty quick, the numbing part was a little painful. There were a few tears, but nothing too bad. The needles were intense, doctors should learn to not show their patients the needles they are going to be sticking into them. Its just cruel and unusual punishment. Now I just can’t move my right arm and have to wear a ice pack for the rest of the day. I’ve already started to bruise and such, but the doctor said it should be gone in a week, overall not too bad. Although, I do wish that I was given the results today. The wait is going to be intense.

Lastly: the icepack I have to wear in my bra makes it look like I had a boob job on one of my breast, but not the other. classsy..

Doctors

I've told a few people about this but not all, but since its getting to the tail end, its easier for me to just write it here then to tell the story multiple time and answer a multitude of questions.

At the beginning of this summer I started to show some of the signs of breast cancer, I went to the gynecologist and then a breast specialist. Neither of the two could find lumps, but they couldn't say what was wrong with me either. The breast specialist said that either my boobs were just messed up or that I might have pagets disease. Its a type of breast cancer, but the likelihood of me having it would be extremely rare (I would be the youngest person recorded to have it).

Yesterday I went to the radiologist and had a ultrasound on my boobs. A nodule was found and the doctor believes it is a fibroadenoma. On Monday i am going to a have a biopsy done and a possible mammogram. We will know the results then. If it is a fibro.. then it is noncancerous and can just sit and chill in there or I can have it removed if it is large enough or if I just want too. It does mean that I will have to go in for check ups fairly regularly because it means i am even more susceptible to breast cancer.

Once i know what it is for sure, i'll let everyone know. As of now I'm not too worried, but I would appreciate any and all kind thoughts or prayers.

My upcoming plans

1)Tonight: have mom take all my stuff home
2)Sunday: have mom bring the furniture back and squat at Leahs
3)Monday: doctors: biopsy
4)Tuesday: Econ Final
5)Wednesday:Move into new dorm illegally
6)Friday: Be legal in my dorm and last day of internship for the summer
7)Saturday: be move in volunteer.

Now onto the good things in my life:
1) The roomies and I decided we are going to be painting our room this year. Leah has picked color combinationms and such. We are such grownups. haha
2) I get to go home and relax for a few days. It will be AMAZING.
3) I'm finally going to get answers from the doctors
4) my internship has been extended to the fall. YESSS
5) Alexa and I will finally be roommates
6)I'm going to get my hair cut
7)My birthday is already planned out, yes I know its in February, but a girl only turns 21 once. My tentative plan is lady gaga the day after my birthday and then wine tastings at vineyards during the weekend. I'm thinking classless to classy.
8) Soon I will have Internet AND cable in my place of residence. This means I no longer have to get exercise to waste away my life. I now can return to my typical routine of TV and computer in bed. LOVES
9) I will be sitting outside tanning and relaxing some point before school starts....
10) I want to do one last trip somewhere before the 30th. WHERE SHOULD I GO?

I hope everyone is having a fantastic friday :-) much love.

And to make everyone's fridays a tad bit better, here is a quote from the blog spot about interns. DC interns are just plain ridiculous sometimes.

"I was riding the metro on my way to a Nationals game when three interns boarded and started having a conversation about DC sites and the White House. One intern was commenting about how much fun it would be to climb the fence on Pennsylvania Avenue and explore the White House grounds. One of her friends wisely advised her that this was a bad idea, because “the social security shoots people who try that.” I laughed for the rest of my ride to the stadium. "

This morning I woke up a little earlier than normal to run some errands, but in general thought it was just another hot and humid day in DC. I figured I would just ride the metro to work and then walk the 2 extra blocks to work, maybe even stopping to get a smoothie if I got to work early enough. Boy was I wrong!

This morning there was a bomb threat in the park across from my office building. Normally it is just filled with homeless people, but in the last two weeks there have been 2 bomb threats. Today’s threat blocked off the whole entire park and multiple blocks surrounding it. No matter what way I tried to get to work I failed.

You would think I would be worried about the bomb threat and my safety, but if you thought this you would be wrong. My thoughts were more concerned with how hot is was outside, about how my food was going bad, and whether or not I should study econ or read my kindle (my kindle won that contest). The fact that the bomb threat barely caused a stir to my mental happiness is quite interesting. Two years ago I would have been freaked, but today I just thought “Ohh D.C., yet another bomb threat. When can I go inside?” What’s even more interesting, is that everyone else’s thoughts were about the same as mine. Countless people asked the police if they could just go into their buildings and that everyone already knew that the “suspicious” package was nothing.


I find myself wondering if it’s sad or not that people have become immune to life threatening events. I wonder if we have developed this mentality because we live in the nation’s capital and if by default we already know we put ourselves at risk everyday by just going about our normal business. Or I wonder if everyone around the world thinks like me and everyone else whose day got put on hold by the threat. Is the world becoming more dangerous because of the increased amounts of threats and violence or because people are more concerned about where they’re going and what they want to do instead of their safety?






And lastly, while I waited outside the same quote from JAWS kept popping into my head: “We’re going to need a bigger boat.”

My Book List

Today at work, when I finally had a breather I checked my email and noticed that Borders, Barns & Noble, and Amazon had all emailed me about their new books and deals. From the selection, I made a quick list, and then went back to work.

Here is the quick list  I made. If anyone has any other suggestions, let me know!

• Disappearing Spoon
• Charlie St. Cloud
• Shit My Dad Says
• The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks
• I am Nujood, Age 10 & Divorced

Whirlwind

I cannot believe its August! Summer has gone by so quickly and I have not accomplished all my goals for the summer! Blah. These past few months definitely have not been a waste though. I’ve learned so much and had some of the best experiences of my life. Living on my own has been an experience, especially when the remodeling of a kitchen goes on for 2 weeks instead of a week; working full-time has been one of the most rewarding experiences of my life; through my econ class, I have developed an appreciation for economics and actually enjoy it (shocker); and DC in the summer is just plain ridiculous! I honestly don’t want summer to end, but senior year is upon me again and it’ll be even more amazing when I graduate.

But, now news on my life! I spent this past weekend in Pennsylvania and just relaxed. Surprisingly, I had no homework to do, so I was just able to enjoy myself. One of the best parts was the fact that wild animals were EVERYWHERE!! There were wild turkey and a groundhog just chilling in the front yard! Sadly, when I tried to get a picture the turkey ran and my picture ended up blurry and of just a tree. The other noteworthy things I did were go for a hike up a mountain to see the whole town of Milford and I was finally able see the movie Inception. When I got home I had come to find that my fridge had not been plugged in all weekend, which really, coming home late at night and finding that you have no food and that everything has a funky smell to it is not pleasant. Everything turned out alright in the end; I am being reimbursed for my food! Epic win.

When I came home, I also came home to a new roommate, The Saminator. He made a bed for himself, left me pretty little notes and probably has more laundry in the apartment then me! It’s nice to have company again because Hermie LaRawr, my fish, just wasn’t cutting it.

My life is slowly becoming less exciting. I am not working as much, not taking as many classes and just relaxing. Since my roommate moved out I no longer have cable or internet, so I’ve become much more primitive and have been finding ways to entertain myself. I’ve been reading a wonderful book called “Eat, Love, Pray” and have started reading a bible verse a day. Surprisingly, reading a bible verse each day has helped me take my thoughts off the doctor’s appointments, school and stress. Today the bible verse said to be grateful for what God has given me. I realize I’m not always grateful for what I do have in my life and that I have a HORRIBLE tendency to always think about things I wish I could have, the unattainable and the what ifs. So today I am focusing on what I am thankful for: My family, friends, my health, my amazing opportunity this summer, my sense of humor, and everything in life that makes me laugh.